the strange one;

This is it

2009-11-03T15:04:00.002+08:00

That's all, folks!

Bye Everyone..

aku lebih tahu

2009-10-20T12:30:00.006+08:00

I know, I need to be strong.
I know, I need to believe in it.
I know, that it'll keep haunting me back.
And it'll just make me different.
I know, I have to understand.
I also know that, I have to accept it.
I know that people never fail to make mistake.
And they'll try to learn from it.
I know that nobody is perfect.
I know that includes myself.
For what I know, I do forgive but to forget, it's hard.

But the whole point is,

I don't know if I'm doing the right thing.

I hope I am. *sigh*

"i assured you, you are doing the right thing" - as you touched my face.
I really hope that you're right.

Ilyvm, seba.

(do treasure me, and cherish me and love me for who i am. cos i feel the same way to you..)

about me: gone with the wind. whooooooosh~

~~u're gonna miss me when i'm gone.~~

Smiling happily

2009-10-14T09:54:00.005+08:00

This coming weekend, off to JB with the family for a very random, short holiday! Kinda look forward to it, cos tell you i seriously need a break. BUT then seriously, it shouldn't be this weekend. There're so many things that I'm gonna miss! Especially on the 18th! Me and SEBA had planned to watch the Impak Maksima the musical, but due to this random holiday, we've got to cancel it. =( I was hoping that it was a just day thingee at JB, but they've decided to overnight at the uncle's new house. PFFFFFTTTT!!!

Back to Dikir recently. Gosh, God (and SEBA) knows how much I miss it. Not only that, I miss dancing too! Easy said, I miss performing. Or better still, I miss my life. My school life. But too bad, now working so has to just face it. -___-

Anyho, life has been so far so good. (: it's just that I miss hanging out with the closed ones, but still we didn't fail to keep in touch everyday! I feel like going KARAOKE lately, and SEBA promised to bring me. Other than that, I'm enjoying myself at home, playing Sepet's guitar hero! Gerek ahhhh! And tell you, I'm quite good okay! And also, I ROCK! \m/
And that also explains why SEBA love to call me minah rockers! HAHAHA! XD

Talking about that, yesterday was the 13th! So it's our 9th mthsary. Alhamdullilah, we last this long and I really hope that we last till eternity. Oh, I've got the new Sophie Kinsella book (Twenties Girl) from him for this mthsary. Thank you, sayang.. (:

And SEBA, I cintakan you.. *giving that cute smile*

That's all for now. Will update soon!
Take care earthlings.
Peace be upon you. :)

Jalan Raya 09

2009-09-28T12:06:00.013+08:00

My Hari Raya weekends was awesome spent with the crazy ever relatives! (: despite have been working for only a month, i still received green packets from them. Tell me, ain't I lucky? Plus with my adorable size, I passed it through and got the green packets! Hee..

Here are some of the photos:

my Pe'ah. <3

I'm looking forward to this weekend. Jalan raya-ing with the closed ones and also SEBA. It's my 4th raya with the Besties and my 1ST with the boyfriend. (: and as always, I can't wait for it.

Okay, that's all for now. It's my lunch time and I wanna makan the new Pizzahut burger! SEBA is being dear and sweet today by bringing me lunch. It was so random of him! Hee..

You tell me, how can I not possibly love this boyfriend of mine?

Eh boyfriend, wa cinta samalu lahh! (:
&&, I rindu u teramat seh! :(

I badly need some quality time with you..
Let's go on a date this Wednesday, okay?
*giving that cute kesian face*

Selamat Hari Raya

2009-09-22T13:24:00.005+08:00

okay, i know it's kinda late but i don't care.. =p
Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin to everyone!
Dyla menyusun sepuluh jari meminta ampun dan maaf atas kesalahan Dyla.
I promise not to do it again. =)
Let's just forgive and forget okay, and don't hold any grudges.
Cos it's not healthy.
Peace and take care, people!

me and my siblings

Happy 8th. (:

2009-09-14T10:19:00.004+08:00

"Time really flies. Pejam celik dah 8 mts kite together. I really enjoy the 8mths with you. The fun, the laughter, the love we shared; the moments we had are all priceless yet berharga. I will treasure you forever syg, and I won't trade our love for anything. Thank you for making me a part of you. Thank you for accepting for who I am. Thank you for everything syg!
Fendi cinta Dyla sangat2! Muackz!"
- SEBA. (:

Yesterday was the 13th, and it was my 8th mthsary with SEBA love. Spent the whole day with him at Geylang; to shop for his raya stuffs. (: den, had our break fast at Pizza Hut since he owed me one. =p he bought for me 3 black roses and one white rose; which to me signifies 1 and 3 (13). and now, I have 8 roses in my room. To him, the white rose signifies him! How cute.. Oh well, he loves white while I love black. Tee hee!

Anyway, I sooo got to agree with him that time really flies. It's been 8mths we are together and loving each other. I still remember vividly during our 1st mthsary, we were like "huh? kite aru one month eh together?" and now, it felt like it was just last month we said that. Hehe.. =D

I'm very grateful to have him in my life. He's the one
who brings me up whenever I'm down.
who colours up my dull life.
who sees hope in me when I feel like giving up.
who wipes my tears when it just keep flowing.
who makes my day and will always make me smile with his randomness.
He's really indeed the one for me. (:

He never get sick and tired when I asked him. "Why Dyla eh?", and he'll answer "Cos you're the best thing that ever happened to me". And I'll lookat him and smile and kiss him. (:

Sayang, I need you to know that you too are the best thing ever happened to me. The moments we had are forever kept in my heart and I promise I won't trade you for anything! *cross my heart* I'm sorry if I've done any wrong to you for the past 8mths.
Remember tao, I love you for who you are and what you are to me. (:
&&, I really treasure you in my life!

Okay now, I badly want him..

And sorry people for the mushy post. (:
Peace be upon you..

Siapa dia kasihku

2009-09-10T12:45:00.006+08:00

"Dalam cinta harus saling percaya
Dalam cinta harus berani pasrah

Dalam cinta harus janganlah goyah

Dalam cinta harus sejiwa

Saling percaya.."
- Aku lebih tahu by Mila.

Tell you, I'm hooked with this song.

At work now, having the lunch time. Since I'm fasting and I'm seriously bored, I decided to update this dusty blog of mine. Hee! Usually, SEBA will accompany me during my lunch time by calling me, but this Boyfie is sleeping right now since he worked night shift last night. So being a good girlfriend, I shall not disturb him dreaming of me. (:

The other time, I was bored at work, and secretly took this photo at my cubicle. Found this heart shape, and decided to snap it and sent to SEBA via MMS. Hee..

SEBA said my muke mcm marah gitu. Hehehe...
Did that to express my love towards him.
Like he always says "Sweet kan?" XD

oh, I find SEBA hot giler in his uniform.
but sadly, i've never personally seen him in that.
Saw this gambar at his facebook profile and it has been there for months;
and I just realised it today. -______-"
Tell me, how selenge is that?

But whatever it is, I know this guy loves me for who I am. (:
and I love him just as much.

Klah, that's all people.
Wanna start doing my work.
Continue to miss me okay..
Peace be upon you. (:

Misses

2009-08-31T12:48:00.002+08:00

5 days per week; weekdays..

morning till evening; spent at HPB.

work, work, work.

i miss my life. =(

i miss waking up late..

i miss going out with the closed ones.

i miss alot alot of things..

above all, i miss my boyfriend.

i always look forward to every weekend.

but again, it never fail to disappoint me with total boredness.

till now, i still don't know what i want in life.

dammit!

i'm walking in a deep darkness with no light.

so far so good.

2009-08-14T15:19:00.002+08:00

alhamdullilah, life has been great so far; for me.

turned 20 last Monday.
feel so old, but yar still look young though.
teehee.. XD
birthday was celebrated with the closed ones.
as usual, they never failed to surprise me.

last two days spent with Seba was awesome as usual.
had a good quality time together; just the both of us. (:
yesterday was our 7th mthsary.
i'm glad that we last this long and hope we last forever.
(i know forever is such a long time, but i'm going to make it happen; just for you)
*giving that adorable smile*

gonna start work next Monday.
i'm looking forward to it, and hope things will be just fine.

oh, ramadhan is just around the corner.
i'm so excited and can't wait for it.
buka ramai2 with the closed ones; then jalan2 at geylang as usual. (:

till then, take care people..

"never say goodbye cos
we are travelling down the love lane,
& down the road, we'll meet again."
-i really love this phrase. (:

Comel Banget. (:

2009-07-21T10:44:00.008+08:00

i'm so freaking tired. don't ask why.

so anyway, congrats to paduka for making it to the final. (:

you guys were great!

met Seba at his place after hanging out with girlfriends.
he brought along his nieces, since i've been dying to meet them.
the moment i saw the youngest one, qisha, i was like CUTE GILER seh budak nie.
and tell you, she was soooo sihat okay..
*GERAAAAAM* =D

see, see.. the one on the right. cute kaaaaan?

so, that was Nonet on the left, yours truly then qisha.

didn't get the chance to meet Nurul yesterday.

yknow, those are Seba's powerpuff girls. (:

"kau akan menjagaku
di bangun dan tidurku
di semua mimpi dan nyataku
kau akan menjagaku
tuk hidup dan matiku
tak ingin, tak ingin kau rapuh.."

I love my boyfriend (:

2009-07-14T15:46:00.009+08:00

Oh, yesterday was the 13th!

It was the 6th monthsary for me and SEBA. I really enjoyed myself with him. It's been quite some time we spent the whole day together eversince he started work. He really pampered me with lots of stuffs. But honestly, I do feel bad okay that he spent alot on me.

At last, I've got this album of Within Temptation. SEBA found it at HMV and bought it for me. Despite that I told him not to, cos of the price..

"For this, you have to be good to me okay" - SEBA.
Okay love, I promise that I'll be good to you. (:

Not only that, he bought for me this handphone with plan of course. (:
Okay, he didn't only buy it for me, he also bought a new hp for himself.
So for that, both of us do have a new number.
But not sure when to use it. HEE!

PLUS, the other time he bought for me a studded earring and bangle!
In return, I bought for him a new top and bermudas.

Since he had spent alot on me, I made him promise to me that he won't belanja me anymore till late Aug. For, I take that everything that he bought for me now as advanced birthday gifts. (:

Oh, I'm such a happy girl with this lovely boyfriend. (:

Sayang, thank you so much for everything.
I really appreciate you in my life;
and the things that you bought for me.
Being with you is the best damn thing that ever happened to me.
And you know right, I love you like alot alot alot! (:

That's all for now, wanna watch the WT DVD!
"SANCTUS ESPIRITUS" *singing out loud*

Black Symphony

2009-07-09T12:29:00.005+08:00

I badly want this album of Within Temptation.
Their full concert at the Ahoy Rotterdam..
Watched some of the videos at Youtube, Sharon was damn f**king hot with her dresses.
I soooooo wanna buy this album but it's not available in Singapore.
PFFFFFFFFFFFFFTTTT.
Went surfing at ebay, and there they have.
But toooo bad, I'm an ebay-idiot.

Buy it for my birthday, and I promise I'll be good to you till the day you die! (:

Contented

2009-07-06T16:16:00.005+08:00

At last, a wish came true.
My last Saturday was great!

Went kendarat-ing with Darlene at Lagun Sari. It was awesome! (:

Then, met SEBA at bedok and headed for Bedok Reservoir Park.

We had a good quality time together; sharing and caring.

Damn, now i'm missing him like @#$%!!

I'm craving for Ramen Ten.
&, I can't wait for the 13th. (:

This is random: I kinda regret for rebonding my hair.
I miss my curly hair, yknow.

B, I rindu u...

Get Well Sooon

2009-07-02T13:51:00.005+08:00

One of my lil brothers, Ojin, had a very high fever and was suspected dengue. He was on MC for like four days, and he had to go for another blood test tmr. If positive, he had to be admitted to hospital. Aiyoyoyo.. He's having his N Level oral like next week, and he's very worried about it.
Oh Lil brother, please be strong and get well soooon. Everything is going to be fine okay. *hugg*

Home has been very quite eversince he fell sick. Sooo boring. I really miss his stupid and silly jokes and nonsense. =(

Even I, myself, am sick. Had common cold. Now, after feeling better, I'm suffering with my monthly cramps. Dammit! Dah satu, satu seh! PFFFT. I wanna get well sooon too.
I wanna go out and have fun!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh, on a completely random note, I feel like going Bedok Reservoir all of the sudden to just chill and relax there. Thought of going with SEBA, but when when when?? So girlfriends, nak go?? Beep me aite.

Klah everyone, do take care okay. Drink plenty of water and don't fall sick okay. (:

&&, I love my SEBA. =)

Boys Over Flowers

2009-06-25T01:45:00.007+08:00

I'm almost done with BOF. Hee.. 4 more episodes to go. Each episode, there is 6 parts. So that makes.. ermmm.. 24 more to go? And there goes, my 2nd time watching this drama. XD SUKE!!

And know what, this Lee Min Ho aka Goo Jun Pyoh is soooo damn farking handsome lah seh! *melt menggiler* despite the fact in this drama, he's one arrogant guy. But then, he's just sooooo AAAAHHHHH!!!! What's more, he's the 1st ever guy I've ever known that has curly hair and look so effing HOT! Maybe, I should suggest to SEBA to perm his hair! Ahakz..

To these besties, I know we miss one another.
We'll meet up real soon aite.
I love you, girls..
Do take care; pape msg or call okay. *bigg hugg*

rinduuulahh

2009-06-20T23:39:00.005+08:00

I miss this SEBA of mine, so damn much!

and, i miss the other bestie, Nurra Hunn. Come back soon, hunn.

Melancholy Mood

2009-06-18T20:29:00.005+08:00

Let's run.

Away from everyone..

Something is not right.

I can sense it.

But then, where went wrong?

Dammit!

I need a hug and a shoulder to cry on.

Will you lend me yours? *sob*

Taman Haiwan (:

2009-06-12T12:32:00.007+08:00

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

"Bila wanita sudah beraksi, dunia hancur"

I seem to agree with this line seh.

And I can be so sure that the ladies out there will agree with me too. (:

Yesterday, OJA at zoo was awesome and damn tiring although at first, it was quite sucky. But after some time, got the hang of it and yea, I think I did quite well. Made friends with Juraidah, Rasyid and Zender who made work fun and bubbly! I worked at the entrance and of course, met alot of different people. Ader baby2 mat saleh cute nak mampos nye!!! SUKER! XD

Shared the experience with Shasha dear, and as usual she will say

"kau eh, orang tgk laki2, kau tgk baby2! dah gitu excited sendiri."

Hee!!!

Life has been great for me the moment I step my foot out from home.

I miss my SEBA like ALOT.. =(

oh, and tmr is 13th. Happy 5th, Love.

Get away

2009-06-07T16:01:00.008+08:00

Omgee! Guess what? I've found the gladiator that I've been seeing people wearing but don't know where the hell they bought it. It's so damn fcuking nice lah seh!!! Now saw it, and I want it! Hee.. Oh btw, I saw it at studiofrost. And it's only $31. AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!! *screaming*

Lawa kan? I know, I know!!! *still screaming out loud*

Yar again, as usual "Orang pantang nampak orang lain happy"..
Still holding that grudge and just not happy seeing me happy.
But nemind, it's okay. =)
I always remember what Love said, "biar orang buat kiter, jangan kite buat orang.."
So note to self: Sabar je lah eh, Dyla..

RINDU

2009-06-04T11:22:00.004+08:00

I miss Love,
so damn much. =(

oh Sunday, please hurry...

Melancholy mood.

2009-06-01T15:27:00.007+08:00

MySpace Playlist at MixPod.com

i'll never ask for a perfect life.
all i ask for is just a better life.
is it too much?
for what i think, i deserve it.

i'm not what you think i am.
tsk!

just having him in life,
i'm grateful for once.

Hatred.

2009-05-29T11:21:00.013+08:00

MySpace Music Playlist at MixPod.com

I'm sick, had fever for no reason.
What's worst with the monthly cramps.
Damn, I'm feeling weak right now.
And that sucks.

I'm begining to hate someone. Okay, I know hating is unhealthy. But I really can't stop myself from hating that someone. I kept asking myself why I should hate that someone when the fact is that someone is not doing anything to me. Yes, we might have that tense between each other but other than that, nothing.. No fight, no hate post, no staring etc. Well, maybe just talking behind each other's back.
But the thing is, I hate you.
Why? In a way, you're destroying my life. URGH!

Now I think I know why I'm sick cos I just hate someone. Pfft!

On a lighter note, I badly need Love right now.
His embrace just ease me down.
oh Love, good luck on your 1st day of work. (:
Muacks.

Just like Emily (:

2009-05-25T15:27:00.011+08:00

MySpace Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Guess what? I've got straight hair now. Hee.. Yeap2, I've rebonded my hair but I don't really like the outcome though. But what matters the most that that someone still find me pretty to him. *winx* Now that I've got this straight hair, I've got the urge to just highlight red. It's so tempting.. What's more with my hair which is black and having a red highlight will just complete it. Cool right? But I really can't stand when Mummy starts to nag and nag. Pfft. So I guess it'll just continue to be a dream. But who knows, I'll just rebel again. Teehee.. =D

My weekend was damn awesome!!! Spent the time with the closed ones too. (: went shopping, grooving, and sightseeing. Not only that, I had a good quality time with Love. Oh, how I wish I can just rewind the time and just pause it. I really love the closed ones sooooooooo much seh!!! They simply rock my polka dot boxer. HEE!!!

Closed ones; never fail to be there. (:
Saaaayang korang...

And this nerd boy; the love of my life. (:
Saaaayang you.

to some people out there, you can hate me for all you want. but the saddest thing is it is still me that you get. so face it okay. (:

Nobody but You (:

2009-05-18T13:07:00.006+08:00

Okay, been talking around, blog hopping and hearing stories. This May seems to be a heart breaking month for some people. I feel sad for them and you know people, be strong okay. It's not the end of everything. Life still has to move on and one thing for sure you deserve someone better who cherish you and will never hurt you. Yea, I know it's easy for me to say but.....

To one of the closed ones, please be strong, honey. Seeing you so weak and just giving up with life really saddens me to the core. You know, you have the rest of us who loves you for whoever you are and who treasure more than he did. Who will never leave you, and will always be there for you for whatever that may happen to you. Serious, hunn, you can really count me on that. So please be strong. It's not the end, maybe it's just a beginning to your real life.

We are always here for you. (:
Oh, and we can't wait to see you later and just give you a big hug and just wipe your tears when it kept flowing and will assure you that things will be alright real soon.
Remember okay, we love you, girlfriend.

MySpace Playlist at MixPod.com

Love, I hope whatever is happening right now, will not happen to us.

And you know, I really treasure you right?

Saaayang Fendi (:

I love you, and I love you for who you are and what you are to me.. Trust me.

DAMMIT, I GOT BLACK HAIR! PFFT.

Supposed to be dark brown..

Time to change (:

2009-05-13T12:38:00.008+08:00

Upon request by this person whose birthday was on the 11th May, here it goes...

Happy 21st birthday to this barney of mine.

As usual, i wish you success in life and happy always.

Hope you last long with your 3++years girlfriend. (:

Good luck, Mr Police.

On a completely random note, I'm thinking of getting rid of my curls temporary. Let's have straight hair.. (: It's time for a new hairstyle. Some of you might wanna kill me for doing this. Yea i know, some people are dying to have curly hairs so why should I get rid of it right? Hehe.. Saje je. New style ah. Takkan nak samer je all the way seh. Don't worry people, the thing is my curls can always grow back and it will be with me till I tua okay! (:

And guess what? I've got bangs now. Teehee!!!!

Oh look, it's the 13th! (:
Happy 4th to me&Love.
Yea, I hope we last too..
Looking forward to meet you later.
And yeay, congrats to Love on getting a job at last.
ILYT.

I seriously love this version. Coooooool ah Within Temptation!!! XD"STAND MY GROUND, I WON'T GIVE IN......."*singing out loud*

Be Silent

2009-05-06T14:50:00.019+08:00

Jangan Tegur was ermmm.. okay lah.

I spent most of the time shouting and closing my eyes with three hands.
Yes, three hands; both mine and Love's.
Hee..
Watching horror movies with the closed ones are forever awesome.
I can't wait for next horror movies!!!

After that, went lepak and makan at Makan Shiok.
Betol2 dah macam pakcik and makcik2. =D
Camwhored there..
Cool or what?

Meeting the closed ones never fail to make me laugh.
I need them the most when things are never okay.
God, I love them..
Never trade them for the world. (:

& this guy, I love him more than the word means.
<3

Next outing: Ming's Arcade!!!
KARAOKE..
Biler? Biler? Biler?
Like Love always said: Malam Sikit. =D

Someone owes me this song.. *winx*

Hatred

2009-05-03T10:32:00.009+08:00

Sad to say, it's turning to hate now.

I'm sorry but I hate you..

You know, I deserve someone better than you.

Not only me, but everyone else.

Never happy with you, and you sucks big time.

Stupid egomaniac!

Damn, I seriously hate you.

Karma is on the way, Dammit!

Say I'm bad or whatsoever. That's what I've got to say.

People with small brain might be thinking it's about my relationship.

Damn, you are wrong.

People don't only blog about their relationships okay.

I'm seriously furious, not PMS-ing.

I badly need my closed ones and Love..

Random, I know. (:

2009-04-30T17:23:00.004+08:00

"With the moon influencing your ruling planet today you will find that you are far more emotionally sensitive than normal. But on the positive side this will also be a day for romance, whether it’s catching someone’s eye or enjoying intimate moments with your partner!"

Your Compatible Sign today for Love: Sagittarius Friendship: Libra

- my horoscope (Leo) for today from horoscope.com

"Romance will feature for you today, with changes and challenges coming your way. Emotionally it will be a roller coaster day, but ultimately a positive one as you find a new way to deal with an unexpected issue, which is likely to revolve around matters relating to commitment and the near future!"

Your Compatible Sign today for Love: Leo Friendship: Libra

- Love's horoscope (Sagittarius) for today from horoscope.com

It's weird, you know. People might have the same horoscope but different personality. When the fact is the characteristic of the horoscope is always the same but then the person of the same horoscope might be so different from the rest. For an example, both me and my mum are Leo. But then honestly, we are different in many ways. But then we have the same horoscope. Get it? There's another person with the same horoscope as me, but God, we are soooo much way different. Serious shit!!!

Damn fcuking random, I know. I'm bored. That's why. Pfft.

Oh yar, cool or what, me and Love are compatible. =D

ILY, S.E..

Toodles!

Oh, Life!

2009-04-26T10:12:00.005+08:00

I badly need a job so effing badly! I need money. I wanna shop till I drop.
I wanna buy shoes, dresses, tops, skinnies, and many many more! =D
Not only that, I want to buy a new handphone!!!

Everything, I want but then money tu takde. Sedih kan?
Currently, I'm waiting for reply from Sentosa regarding job as attraction hosts.
Don't know if I get it or not; since according to the HR there my face nie mcm orang tak suke kai uniform! What the hell..
On the other hand, Kumon just called back asking to come for training then can start work.
But if possible, I wanna work at Sentosa. Lagi gerek! =D

To add on, suddenly, i miss my main comm 08/09.
Was watching the video that we performed during AGM, and damn, I miss them lah seh.
Hakim, Hafeez L, Nadiyah, Adee, Hafiz S, Kyle, Sap, Fahmi, Fyyza, Dayah, Liyana and Hajar; I miss you people.
I will organise one outing real soon okay. Before those abang2 masuk NS. (:

I can't seem to find the original one on Imeem. I hope this will do.

And also, I miss my a-bi-good girlfriends. :(
Let's hang out and sing our lungs out!
Shasha syg, where are you? Call me sooon. I miss you like fcuk!

On a lighter note, I'm very much in love with S.E.
Get well soon, sayang. (:

Till then, take care people.
Oh yar, no tagboard cos to avoid any more hatred. Peace people! (:

bored too. (:

2009-04-23T15:39:00.011+08:00

3 things about myself:

(1) i'm free like a bird.

(2) i don't live to impress you!

(3) i love my boyfriend. =p

- indeed everything. (:

SHARUL EFFENDI IS LOVE!

"sesungguhnya ku takkan berdaya,

menghadapi rintangan tanpa dirimu"

Getting weaker

2009-03-31T16:38:00.003+08:00

Getting no where. Weak. I've yet to figure out where to go.

I'm stuck and lost; with no guidance.

Left, and insulted; that's how I felt.

Sick and tired of everything but there's nothing I can do about it.

I just wanna run and run and run w/o turning back and know that I will forget you.

I'm LOST.

Moving On

2009-03-05T18:16:00.005+08:00

I have been feeling sad and miserable these past few days. And the truth is I don't know why I'm feeling so. Weird right? I know.

But listening to this song simply makes me happy. It makes me wanna dance and dance. Hee.. God, I miss dancing seh. And yar, dance also makes me happy! (:

So when I'm feeling down, just buy me an ice cream and play me this song. And I promise you, you will see me smile. Hee.. Okay, now I feel like eating Ben&Jerry's Brownie wid Ice-cream! =D

Tags replied:

Darlene(: - yea, even i'm myself not perfect seh beb. Anw yea, i love u too, hunnybunny! (:
Sally - hey love, i'm fine. & i miss you like alot too! (:
Amz - alah ayg, biarkanlah orang nie smuer. like someone said to me "biar orang buat kite, jangan kite buat orang". (:
Waiidah - hahah.. yeap2, i know. kecoh kan? biarkan lah. (:
FENDI - betol betol betol!!! =D i pun saaaaaaaaayang u, B! (:
fatananana - oops! sorry. meet up soon. RINDU lah. (:

Sorry for the extremely late reply due to inactiveness in Blogger. Oh well, I'm not a heavy blogger. (: So yar!

P.S: Weird, someone kept viewing my blog. Anyway, hate me for all you want, it's still me that you get. Peace!

Mekar di hatimu (:

2009-02-04T11:25:00.008+08:00

"You know, one day, someone will add colours to your dark life, and let you see that there are more colours to black."

- Ex-beau.

And yar, true enough. I've met that someone. *winx* (of course not the exbeau!)

I'm sure that explains the difference in my new blogskin from the previous ones. Hee..

Oh, to add on, I'm so much in love with this guy. (:

Sing this song, Love. (:

One happy kid.

2009-01-29T15:48:00.007+08:00

A short update.

For two days straight, we've been wearing the same tone. No plans, purely coincidence. Cool shit right? Random, i know.

Delilah & Darla. <3

Oh! &&, I simply adore random calls from YOU. Just to say how much I mean to you.
Happy! Suke! SMILE! - I'm one happy girl, you know. (:

"Maafkan bukannya aku tak berhati

Ku hanya pilih cinta yang aku cintai"

What's going on?

2009-01-22T15:42:00.005+08:00

Been hearing a lot of things lately. The facts, the rumours, the stories, the assumptions, and many more. And sadly but true, all of them are sad things. Things that made me sit and think as what is really going on. It saddens me to the core knowing and hearing all these. What's with people trying to destroy someone's life? Why can't they be part of their happiness instead of sadness? What do they get by doing all these? Happiness? Satisfaction?

Oh come on, that's not the way. Grow up, people.

Some people really can't bear to see others happy. They'll talk and calling people names. And then, BOOM, people will start to tag with them and hate that someone. Haizz...

For example, people insulting the opposite sex's sexuality. Calling people of the same sex by a girl's thing? Just because knowing that they can't get the girl that they want, and uhuh so they try to bring the guy that the girl chose down. !@#$. What's with these people eh?

Seriously, they are making me damn angry seh.

For once, let us be supportive and just respect people's decision.

Be happy for others.

Always be there for one another.

Never bring others down but instead support them.

Let them know that they are appreciated and treasured by us.

Yes, you can gossip for all you want,

but make sure you don't assume.

Together, we'll have a peaceful life.

On a lighter note,

Everyone deserve their own privacy.

So get a life and mind your own business.

Peace! (:

A random song for my loved ones. (:you know who you are.this song reminds me of you....

f**k, my hotmail a/c was hacked! pfft.

A short one.

2009-01-18T12:55:00.010+08:00

to Imran: Eh hang! Chek khabor baek noh! Hee.. (: Hang aru alek dari Kelantan ke?

to Amz: Yea, let the hate taggers be. Hahaha.. Semangatnye you google what black rose means! And yar, it means hatred and death for that I love them. Macam lawa kan gitu black rose! To me, it signifies love. (:

to Darlene & Fendi: Let these people do what they want. Let them try to bring me down cos I know I have you people to support me and bring me up. Saaayang lah. (:

Tags replied.

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I'm happy with life right now. That's all you people have to know.

Would you be my American Boy? (:

Gossip Vs Innocent

2009-01-12T13:42:00.011+08:00

"Look into her eyes, and you can see the innocence in it"

Life hasn't been that great. People have been trying to pull me down and hell yar, they did it. And for that, Congratulation on the success of doing it. (:

All I can say is that, I'm not that bad as what you heard about me..

Let me live my life, let me have it as how I want it to be.

I've had enough of all these stupid drama thingee that's going on. Stop it okay. I'm freaking tired.

Don't judge and making your assumptions w/o knowing the truth.

Senang kate, jangan macam paham okay? (:

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I wanna thank these lovelies of mine for being there, for giving the moral support, for picking me up when i'm down, for assuring me that there's someone out there who still care and love me, for accepting me for who i am, for believing in me, for lending me their shoulders for me to cry on, for the endless hugs that i'll get from them when i need it, for being a listening ear, for being honest with me when knowing the fact that the truth will hurt me, for giving me the strength to fight, for the unlimited care and concern that i get from them, for standing by my side when knowing that the world has turned away from me... I really appreciate for all those things that you've done for me..

Shasha Darlene; Nurra Darla; Fendi B; Nigel Bestie,

Dyla saaaayang korang sampai mati okay. (:

Thank you, korang, thank you so much. (':

And yar, I'll always remember this song, girlfriends. (:*wiping tears*

BarneyKu

2009-01-05T11:59:00.009+08:00

Uhuh Ridz, I've uploaded our photo together. (:

I know you have waited for donkey years for me to upload this photo. Sorrylah, masa tak mengizinkan lah kan.

Remember this song? *Kenangan lah seh*

Be happy always okay and hopefully, you last long wid your GF. (:

Thank you for being my friend and always being there for me.

It's Monday Morning 5.19

2009-01-04T11:40:00.002+08:00

Lagu steam lah seh!

and the singer is soooooooo cute! hahaha..

suke! (:

Karaoke-ing with girlfriends is forever best and giler!

Thanks to them, i know this song. (:

Whatever eh KATEK

2009-01-02T10:21:00.003+08:00

Heard, Read and now I'm angry, pissed and sad.

This is my life okay so it's my PASAL!
None of your business.
Lu pantang, Lu nye pasal.
Everyone deserves their private life.

So KATEK, fuck off kay.
You used to be part of my life.
Just get lost okay.
"You used to rock my ass but now,
you are such a pain in my ass."

Making a fool of yourself,
That's what you love to do.
FUNNY? Of course NO.
Omg, I'm soooooo paiseh to know that you used to be part of my life.

Now KATEK, just fuck off kay.
I repeat, it's my life so just let me be.
Another thing, I'M NOT AS BAD AS YOU THINK I AM larh!
The truth is.............
I'm beginning to hate you.
and that's sad.
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To the rest...
eh HELLO, nobody is perfect.
Even you, yourself!
And so am I..
Talk and talk about me for all you want.
But just know this, I am not a monster.
But a normal human being.
Just like you...
*Sigh*

Biarlah Rahsia

2008-12-29T13:33:00.005+08:00

"Pernahkah kau bermimpi seketika

berada di tempat ku

membayangkan pahit manis

berlaku tiada siapa yang tahu"

.........................................

"dan kisahku yang masih panjang

menambahkan berat yang memandang

lantasku pendam ku putuskan

biarlah rahsia"

Long Lost Sister.

2008-12-26T14:47:00.004+08:00

I was randomly listening to songs at Youtube just now. And suddenly, the song "Pening" came into my mind. The one that was sang by Ezlynn and M Daud Kilau.

Then I remembered, I used to love Ezlynn like sooo much. Like how much I adore Agnes Monica now. I like Ezlynn because of the way she is, and her unique voice! Rock lah seh.. \m/
Another plus point is that she got natural curly hair like me! XD she's the one who makes me love my curly hair and made me realised that afterall curly hair isn't really that bad.
You know, I've ever took photo wid her but I can't seem to find the photo. Will upload when found.

Ok now, I adore her once again! Sukeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Lawa kan? My long lost sister. (:

Same kan? Okay tak, i know. Pfft.

One of my favourite songs sang by HER:
Enjoy!

Okay people, I've updated my blog. Amek korang! Hee..

Sorry but then I'm not a heavy blogger larh.

To Barney, I'll post our photo together real soon cos for now, I'm using the family computer. (: soon k...

Meranalaaaaa

2008-12-12T10:53:00.006+08:00

I can hardly close my mouth; having a hard time talking; can't scream and shout like nobody's business; and the most important thing is i'm unable to enjoy every single thing that enters my mouth. PFFT!

This is what happened when you're having a gumache! and according to some people, my last tooth is growing. But still the pain that i'm going thru' is indescriable.
I refrain myself from talking so much because I sound like a girl who is "pelat". My S sounds like "ath". Imagine that?! My lips are dry. I'm having a mild fever, and yar at times, I got that minor headache. I'm so hungry but thanks to that GUM, I don't feel like eating anything. Luckily, Mum doesn't cook any of my favourite foods lately if not, I've got to give it a miss and just drool by looking at them.

AND URGH!!! I can feel now that I'm going to have another gumache on my upper teeth.

oh GOD, please take those pain away. I'm really suffering tao! I wanna maaaaakaaaaan!!!! *sobsobsob*

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Before I end this post,

Darlene Dear, I'm so happy to see you happy now. I told you, you're taking the right move. For now, enjoy life okay and smile always cause you look good when you smile.

Always remember this okay: "If I'm strong enough to face all these problems, why can't you be strong just to face that one problem?" - Delilah.

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Oh yar, I miss dancing like @#$%!!!

"Dyla, teach me how to slow dance..."- Peterpan.

We shall dance together one day! (:

Peace be upon you. (:

Stand My Ground.

2008-12-05T14:09:00.002+08:00

Stand My Ground - Within Temptation

Stand My Ground, I Won't Give In

No More Denying, I Got To Face It

Won't Close My Eyes And Hide The Truth Inside

If I Don't Make It, Someone Else Will

Stand My Ground

This song means a lot to me. Every single phrase has its meaning, and it really inspires me to be strong. To just stand for my right. A lot of things happened recently. It was like totally WTF. pfft. I hate it man. So yar, whenever I listen to this song, it makes me strong to just face all those problems and just solve it. Instead of just leave them like that. But still, till now, I am not strong........ and the problems are still there, not solving.

Anyway, I'll be away to KL for 3 days. Will be back on Monday. And guess what? Tuesday is my 1st paper for CT. wth right? pfft. so yeah people, don't miss me too much okay. I'll be back real soon. (:

To friends, all the best for your upcoming common test! take care.

Shoot and Run

2008-11-21T13:29:00.004+08:00

Angels - Within Temptation.

I can't seem to put the one from Imeem. So I'll just share the one from Youtube. Enjoy!

The meaning of this song is soooo mendalam. (:

"You took my heart, deceived me right from the start
You shot me dreams I wish would turn into real
You broke a promise and made me realize— it was all just a lie"

Hold on, baby.

2008-11-18T11:49:00.004+08:00

Hold on, baby.

IF WE HOLD ON TOGETHER - DIANA ROSS

A lot of things happened lately. Due to that, something is not right with me. And because of all these, some people are affected. Imagine how cunning can I be?

To those who are affected, I'm so sorry...

"Love is always patient & kind. It is never jealous. It always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes"

- Nicholas Sparks, A walk to remember.

Always remember that. Afterall, it is just a test maybe..

what have you done

2008-11-16T12:01:00.005+08:00

One by one, problems enter into my life.

Once again, I am never strong to solve them.

What's more, to face them.

I just feel like crying again......... =(

What Have You Done (Feat. Keit - Within Temptation

Dad was sent to Tan Tock Seng Hospital yesterday due to a very bad stomachache. Alhamdullilah, he was allowed to go home after being under observation for 4 hours. Seeing Mum cried really saddened me.

"Selama mak kahwin ngan bapak, bapak tak pernah masok hospital."
- No wonder she cried.

I've been holding my tears for sooo long. And yesterday, I cried. Cried like I've never cried before. On that ~~someone's~~ shoulder. Thank You Lovelette.

it's happening again. and i'm scared... really scared.

Lagu Steam (:

2008-11-12T18:54:00.003+08:00

Dilemma - Nelly Featuring Kelly Rowland

all of the sudden, i like this song.
you know why? i don't know either.

teringat lah zaman secondary and also... at the park. :)

So Happy Together

2008-10-23T18:13:00.007+08:00

Life has been great for me.

With superrrduperrcool close friends & lovely Boyfriend.

On the 29th Oct was Boyfriend's 19th Birthday.

Nope, it was not sour.

Went Ramien Ten at Harbour Front. Since Boyfriend has been wanting to eat there. And yeah, one of his wishes has came true.

I really hope that whatever he wishes for, will come true. (:

Insya Allah.. *Amin*

& not only that, i hope that he's happy always, lagi2 with Delilah.

Happy Belated 19th Birthday, BooBoo Love!

"That'll be a hero that will save us" - Hazman singing.
And yes honey, that'll be You.

I know that I can always count on you.

So Happy Together - Turtles

Luahan Hati

2008-10-10T16:49:00.002+08:00

SUKE!!! =D

I love you, Picaresque. (:

Ignorance.

2008-10-08T11:52:00.006+08:00

Dyla is having her moment right now.

Melancholy.
"i just wanna cry and cry and cry.."

She'll be ignoring everyone and that includes YOU, honey.
She apologises for that.

Away, doing some soul searching.
Take care ok lovelies.

"Call? SMS? Don't bother okay." - Dyla

Spot the difference. (:

2008-10-06T10:13:00.005+08:00

Peace be upon you. (:

Just a short update!

Was browsing through the gambar-gambar raya, and found these two photos.
Haha.. The photos are about the same right? Same pose, different babies. (:

Raya 2007, me with Herdiyani. CUTE!

Raya 2008, me and Mass'Anisa. Adorable!

Now people, do i look different?

I've grown up, ain't I?

What do you have got to say huh? (:

Lawa kan kan kan?

Mood-less Raya.

2008-09-29T10:09:00.005+08:00

I'm sad.. Very, very, very sad. Why? Hari Raya is like the day after tomorrow, and my swollen left eye is not getting any better. In fact, it's getting worst. Worst than yesterday. This morning, the moment I woke up, I went to see myself in the mirror and I cried. I look horrible. Imagine my left eye is small plus my eyelid is damn thick. Horrendous right? I cried like as if I'm a small kid who has lost her favourite toy. I thought of seeing the doctor but then to recover in just two days is so impossible. Haizzz.. I'm sooo not in the mood for raya.

Today is the exhero's 20th birthday. I know that's impossible for him to read my blog, but whatever it is, I wanna wish him Happy 2oth Birthday and hope he's happy always (w/o me).

Well people, I'm taking this opportunity to wish you all a

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Salah dan silap Dyla harap dimaafkan ye!

Dyla promise, takkan buat lagi okay. =D

unveiling the hidden of my love life now.

oh Hazman, I love you. (:

Oh, Raya..

2008-09-27T22:20:00.004+08:00

Hari Raya is around the corner. It's like another 3 more days. That means I will bid goodbye to Ramadhan soon. Pfft. I fast for only two weeks for this Ramadhan. I can't fast for the 1st and last week, thanks to Period.Stayed at home today, to help Mummy but ended doing nothing. Just touching up with the overall look of own room. Very nice, I loike! Oh yar, I'm soooo gonna paint my room black and white! Next year kot? Darla, Darlene, let's paint my room once again! I cooked the break fast today. Mee goreng! Hee.. It's been such a long time since I last cooked. Oh, i miss cooking. (:

Sesuci Lebaran - Siti Nurhaliza

A raya song, to motivate self and others for raya, since I don't feel excited for Raya cos my baju raya belum siap-siap lagi eh.

Not only that, I have swollen left eye. Oh God, dah satu, satu eh. I used to have it on the right eye and now it's on the left. Pfft. I'm soooo not gonna be pretty on Hari Raya. Oh my big, round eyes, please recover before raya cos I wanna look good. (:

That's all people. Peace be upon you.

Oh Boy, I can't help but to fall for you deeper.

&, I'm looking forward to every tomorrows.

Cause that's when you love me more than today.

Officially DyPicaresque (:

2008-09-25T09:28:00.005+08:00

Fantasia Bulan Madu - Datuk Siti Nurhaliza

in the mrt, otw home.

you hold me in your arms, and you sang me this song.

it made me feel relaxed, despite we're standing in the train.

oh Boy, I love you soooo. (:

Promised, and signed.

And now you're mine!

wooohooo~

he said that he'll love me more tomorrow.

oh tomorrow, where are you??

bad, i am not.

2008-09-23T12:17:00.006+08:00

"Everything happens for a reason" - Picaresque
& so, he believes in fate than miracle.

Never ever has it ever crossed my mind to spoil someone's relationship.

Sumpah, Demi Allah, I don't even have the intention to be a third party or worst still, perampas!

So are all these MIRACLE or FATE??

seriously, i'm feeling down someway somehow by the way you wrote that. &&, i feel bad.

peace be upon you.

Misses

2008-09-22T10:05:00.004+08:00

Am friendstering now. Found this coolshit thing at one of the bulletins, and thought of sharing it with people here. (:

GIRL FACTS ---

When a girl is mean to you after a break-up…she wants you back but she is too scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever!
When you catch a girl glancing at you, she wants you to look back and smile.
When a girl bumps into your arm while walking with you, she wants you to hold her hand.
When she wants a hug she will just stand there.
When u break a girl heart she'll still feels it when you run into each other 3 years later.
When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind..
When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply..
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds, she is not at all fine.
When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are playing games.
When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a girl says she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a girl says, "I miss you," no one in this world can miss you more than that....

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GUY FACTS ---

When a guy calls you, he wants to be with you..
When a guy is quiet, he's listening to you...
When a guy is not arguing, he realizes he's wrong..
When a guy says, "I'm fine" after a few minutes he means it.
When a guy stares at you, he wishes you would care about him and wonders if you do.
When your laying your head on a guy's chest, he has the world.
When a guy calls/texts/comments/messages you everyday, he is in love..
When a GOOD guy tells you he loves you, he means it
When a guy says he can't live without you, he's with you till your done..
When a guy says, "I miss you," he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else.

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hahaha.. happy reading. (:

peace be upon you.

life has been great for me with the loved ones.

Bliss. (:

2008-09-20T09:10:00.004+08:00

peace be upon you. (:

if i'm the silly minah in this photo, i'll beat myself up.

cos i still feel bad for what happened yesterday night.

yea, random right? i know. pfft.

MCC Iftar 2008 was okay. Everything went smoothly, but someway somehow I can see some disappointment on some faces. The problem was just that the respond was not good this time round, and I don't blame anyone in this matter including the publication. No one was at wrong. I can see that they've done their best, the rest was all up to the public to come and join in the fun. Nightwalk suggested by Boyfriend, was okay. Kept sensing something when the fact is now is Ramadhan and according to people, the Setans were locked! Is it just me or am I really seeing things? pfft!

People seems to side that ex-hero about the break up issue. I thought it's over, no more talking or gossiping about it. But well, i was wrong. Kena lectured by Hakim and Kyle yesterday about it. People see, people judge, people talk. Seriously, I don't give a damn shit about it anymore. It's my life and so I decide it for myself. Btw, there's no more ~~DhilaHafiz~~ ok!!! NO MORE! &, don't pandai2 to patch things up between me and him. Harap maklum, TERIMA KASIH. (=

(nope, tak marah, cuma tegur sahaje.)

Random: oh yar, have i mentioned that Boyfriend was sizzling hot yesterday? Serious!! Eventhough he wore the kemeja with grey pants and slippers plus sweating like a pig. Hahaha.. =D

Another Random: It's hard to be hotstuff. Now, I know how Nurra feels. Wahahaha.. =D

i miss having those long night chats on the phone with someone special. (:

&, he made it happened. i love you larrr, Boyfriend.

Lollies for you, Picaresque

2008-09-17T11:44:00.010+08:00

"Your LIFE or Your ~~CIGGARETTES~~"

The moment I heard that from you, I know that i might lose you to that bad habit. When you turn to me and asked me to help you stop that habit, I knew that I've got to do something. Honestly, I'm clueless about all these on how to kick that habit. But I guess it will come by naturally if you are determined to do so. Once, I saw you puffed and it saddened me. &, it was at the point of time I realised that you need me. To support you, to encourage you, to believe in you, to "nag" at you, and to prove that there's someone who treasures you. (:

I'll do my part but you have to do yours too. Together we'll overcome this hurdle. *winx*

Now choose: Ciggies or Lollies

but at the same time, don't eat too much lollies. sakit later gigi, don't find me. =p

As I sit here and try to think of some kind of quote that describes my feelings for you,

all I can think of is, "Oh God, I love him."

Crestfallen

2008-09-15T09:50:00.005+08:00

forever a failure, i guess.
i need to change, not for anyone, but myself.
*sobsobsob*
i'm hopeless with this hopeless course. pfft.

now, i just feel like crying and just cry like nobody's business. i'm holding back my tears now. i can't possibly just cry in the office. i soo have to take a half day leave. my mind is not here, my heart is shattered, i look shaggered and lastly i'm disappointed.
i may be weak and soft-hearted but please people, don't take advantage of it.
i wanna be strong like how i used to be. i don't know since God knows when, i've changed and i realised it too okay.
i used to be those tomboyish type who's hot-tempered and super duper sensitive. i don't wear skirts, i don't wear tube dresses, i don't put on a blusher and mascara as eyeliner will be good. i don't feel embarrased burping very loudly in front of people as i believe that "it's always better out than in". plus, i was seldom there for my girlfriends, as to me, i prefer to be friends with guys. girlfriends, they always talk about guys and i find that boring someway somehow. but yes, lately i've changed. changed to a be a girl, i shall say. i wanna keep long hair now. i have this dream of wearing a black tube dress with my long hair covering my shoulder. how girlish is that right? come to think back of it, will dyla in the past want to wear this kinda shit? pffft.

losing such a good friend. very disappointing... very..

joy =)

2008-09-11T09:57:00.004+08:00

life has been great so far with the wonderful people. though the thought of going to office early in the morning sucks big time, and also to go home and to hear mum's popetpopet kills me like toot. pfft.

adiratna's performance is drawing near, which is in 2 days time. i kinda look forward to it. insya Allah everything will go well and i won't screwd the anak like how i did in the past competition. we'll be wearing the "selendang". yar, thanks to kyn as according to her, adiratna is known for wearing that thing and only the deqratnas are the ones not wearing it. to me, no difference okay. adiratna or deqratna, both same people. so will it make any different if we wear selendang or not? pfft. so yar people, look forward to see me wearing the selendang, this saturday. =)

other than that, i'm happy that everything is okay now though the fact is someway somehow it isn't. i'm being strong now to just be ignorant of everything. thanks to that shasha! =D

i'm sooooo looking forward to this evening's buka ramai-ramai with the a-bi-good girls, my "Michael" and RAZI! pizza hut! woohoo.. best kape?

do blog entries suppose to be that way?
it makes you feel like you're not yourself.
that you're bad as bad as ever,
but when the fact is you're not.
but still, i feel bad.

Michael, I love you. =)

the season

2008-09-07T22:40:00.002+08:00

the feeling that i have right now is indescribable.
i sense something is not right.
someway somehow, i'm feeling uneasy.
ask me why, my answer will be "I don't know".
honestly, something is not right.

i'm tired and i don't know why i'm tired. i hate office work, updating database sucks big time. the thought of going to work tomorrow, makes me wanna cry. it's so boring. with boring attachies and the confined space. with more and more work given when my work is yet to be cleared and done with.
pfft. miserable seh.

many people are falling sick. having sore throat, fever, flu, and heartbreaks. it's the season, i guess. so people, do take good care of yourselves during this fasting month. and to those who are sick, get well soon okay.

that's all for now, i guess.
my mood is sungguh tak betol right now.

to Picaresque, Get Well Soon cause imyvm.

shasha's birthday

2008-09-05T00:06:00.003+08:00

on 3rd Sept, it was this lady's birthday.

celebrated it at vivocity with darla, Maman, Lemang and of course, myself.

it was fun, eating KFC during raining day.

it's been quite some time the girls hang out.

to this lady, happy 20th birthday once again.

you're all grown up okay so please be matured and stop being childish.

pfft.

i love you, shashacute.

the a-bi-good girls, as usual, can't resist the camera.

so yar, here are the shots taken.

these time round not much photos taken.

but still, the love among us were never less.

i know i can always count on them.

i love ya, nurraihan and siti nur aishah.

last but not least, to this guy.

thanks for being there too.

thanks for making me laugh and put a smile on my face once again.

yar, honestly, i love you too okay. =)

that's all people.

life has been great so far.

~~soon, the bad times will come, i guess.~~

do be strong, dyla.

2008-09-03T16:48:00.002+08:00

shoot me in the brain, people!

i just screwed my company's database.

&, i don't even dare to tell my boss about it.

i'm soooo dead and lost.

matilah aku...

Btw, Happy 20th Birthday, SHASHACUTE!

walaplu! =D

maman,

you never fail to put a smile on my face. =)

2008-09-02T09:06:00.009+08:00

Let's be strong, honey.

To go through all these obstacles.

I need you to be strong

cause you are my strength.

I might break down any moment.

But seeing the love that i get,

I try to hold on there,

& told myself, Go for it.

"All i know for sure is i'm trying..

I will always stand my ground."

slowly that feeling grows...............from eyecandy to..............love.

(Shiaaat~ why must all these happen when i'm PMSed, cause that's when my emotions are unstabled. pffft~)

2008-08-30T10:13:00.003+08:00

i have to be strong.

the test from Allah is here once again.

be strong, dyla. be strong..

please be there for me, loves and do stand by me.

cos the truth is i'm not.

melancholy mood (4)

2008-08-22T19:43:00.003+08:00

here i am crying like nobody business, and no one was even there for me.
i'm feeling very sad. very, very, very sad. plus GERAM.
everyone is having a nice time with other people. but here i am in my dark room, blogging about this since i really got no one to talk to.

today, i found out that my mum intruded my privacy too by logging in to this lappy of mine, and just read whatever can found here. plus, i got to know that whoever and whenever i talked to someone, my siblings was like "pasang telinga" to every conversation of mine. i feel so rimas seh. seriously. things really changed eversince i "broke off" with hafiz. my mum is getting on my nerves every single day. she smsed the gfs about me, and so is hafiz. he smsed the gfs too.
seriously people, i feel so rimas seh. f**king rimas.

salah ke? am i wrong to break up with hafiz? i'm just standing for my rights. tu je.. i just want to be free, and also be happy. yes, happy. i want to smile once again. but then, everyone seems not to care. they only care about hafiz's feeling. but how about me? so what he was hurt? he's hurt NOW after i asked to end this relationship but how about my feelings that was hurt for the last two years? nobody sees it. nobody knows it. so once again, i'm wrong right?

mum scolded me so badly like as if i really did a big mistake. she don't know anything and she acts like she knows everything that is happening around here. i'm really frustrated with her but there's nothing i can do about it. she really pissed me seh. why for once, can't she see her daughter being happy.. whey can't her? why think about that hafiz when he is not even her son. i'm really, really feeling sad seh people. really...
it really turn me off when people intrude into my privacy. i really hate it ok. and sadly, mum and hafiz did that. what's wrong with these people eh? don't they like have any better things to do? huh? huh? stop bothering me lah, please.. i'm feeling so suffocated now.

come on lah people, i'm only 19. i just want to be happy. can't i?? i want to do whatever i want. tak boleh ke? i'm very tired seh, very tired. both emotionally and physically. people are attacking me. and i'm scared that i'll just break down. i'm not really that strong ok, i'm getting weaker each day.

oh today, i hate you so.
oh God, please make me strong to go through all these obstacles.
oh Girls, i'm so sorry to disturb your dates today. no worries, that'll be the last.
oh Boy, i'm so sorry that all these happened because of me. so sorry... i'm sure you know what i mean.

-dyla. (crying miserably)
not pms-ing ok, i'm really feeling down.
in need of a big hug and a shoulder to cry on.

(p.s: try calling me, if i didn't reply your msgs)

sorry.

2008-08-21T02:51:00.002+08:00

i'm sorry..

i don't wish to be like her.

kecantikan perempuan.

2008-08-18T23:41:00.002+08:00

ok, this post is very random ok.
got nothing to do, so decide to update lah.

"kecantikan perempuan terletak di....."

i've asked around and i swear, i got different2 answers ok.
cool-shit abes!!!

got some said that:
"kecantikan perempuan terletak di........"
(1) matanya.
(2) paras wajahnya.
(3) bentuk badannya.
(4) rambutnya.
(5) kakinya.

and paling kekek sekali, ada yang jawab, di bulu kakinya eh!!
hahaha..

sungguhkelakar.com ok.
imagine lah, lelaki perhatikan bulu kaki perempuan bila perempuan lalu..

kk, dah.
my malay like taik lah.

bubbye! =)

a date with darla.

2008-08-17T14:20:00.005+08:00

hello people.

yesterday, i went out with darla. an appropriate date eventhough it was a last minute one. but still, she made my day!!!

after meeting up at woodlands, we went to bugis. yea, bugis. among all places in S'pore cos according to this lady here, she's meeting someone at city hall lah kan. so yar, bugis pun bugis lah eh. had lunch at LJS den jalan-jalan. we spent most of time talking and talking instead of window shopping so yar, i didn't see anything there that attracts my attention. anyway, it's good lah since no $$$. (:

after that... jeng jeng jeng jeng jeng~

after the jeng jeng jeng jeng jeng, we jalan-ed kaki all the way to esplanade. best! saw the DHL balloon and reminded me that Dee nak belanje me naik that, u know. coolshit right! yeayea, can't wait. it's the birthday treat. the DHLs will ride together2. haha..

upon reaching esplanade, we found a good spot where according to this darla, where this is a chinese area. so not MATs and MINAHs. haha.. paderhal-paderhal. so again, we chat and talk like nobody business. come to think back of it, tak penat eh mulut kite. den went home at 8++pm. that's all.

now the photos!!!

my darla.

nice, right? i know. i took it okay!

another photo captured with my socalled-haprak handphone.

but it turned out to be nice lah seh. (:

at the esplanade toilet.

girls, they can never resist the mirror + camera.

last but not least, yours truly.

nice? i know.

hee...

klah that's all people.

peace be upon you.

take care..

&&, i miss hafiz S.

my one and only

2008-08-16T01:17:00.004+08:00

hello people, i know i have been menyepi for quite some time.

updating my blog by introducing my one and only cucu who is much older than me..

yes, that's her. i'm so proud to see her picture at esplanade.

"i'm so proud of you lah, cu."

yes, i know, u wanna a close up right?

here she is, jambu kan?

see the nenek ok.

ok that's all folks.

assalamualaikum.

FURAMA

2008-08-04T22:48:00.009+08:00

Hello people.

My weekends were super fun. Accompanying the padukarians performing at Furama Hotel. Very the grrrrand. Actually, i don't know what to say but just want to upload these photos that i've just editted. (:

the small girls w/o Liana. different category lah kan. hee.. (=

yeap2, the super duper gilers. me just posing for the camera!

the girls with the padukarians.

Last but not least, me&you lah.

got sooooo many photos but these are some of them. check them out kat dayah's multiply kot!bler agaknye adiratna nye turn nak perform pat hotel ah?

joke of the day: "paduka's trophy is bigger and taller than adiratna's"

padehal, theirs are just..........check them out urselves!!!! padehal padehal..

come to think back of it, i love the editted version of hotel california that ikhwan and az made on the bus. hahaha..

standard lah with these people, you will laugh and laugh.

hahahahahahahahahahaha..

klah that's all people.

take care ok.

Assalamualaikum. (:

Congrats

2008-07-29T13:39:00.002+08:00

First thing first, I will like to congratulate the girls (deq-ratna) for getting the third place in the Piala Suara Serumpun Competition. Congratulation girls.
For me, though I screwd like hell for playing that anak, I'm happy that we won third. I thought I pulled down the marks tremendously but still, Alhamdullilah, we won.
But do remember be humble and not bossy cause you girls are yet to be the best. There are still more things that you all yet to know and learn.

Me, starting attachment pretty soon. 25th Aug 2008 yes, that's the date! Sian lah. Though it's just a month plus attachment, but the thing is it falls on the fasting month and yes, RAYA month. alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. 11th Oct 2008 is the end of attachment but still only got how many days then sekolah! tak sukaaaaaa... and another worst thing is that, i'll be working weekdays from 9am-6pm! Like shhiiiat then not only that, SATURDAY ALSO WORKING LAH SEH!!! end at 1pm plak tu. urgh~~~

bosan bosan bosan bosan bosan.

something I wish I am still seven years old.
yar, I have the size but I want the age too.
sooo stress-free and enjoyable.

oklah that's all.
tgh sedih and pasrah nie.

take care and bubbye.
and yar, counting down 12 more days.
remember ok people.
hahahahha..

Assalamualaikum. (:

i'm bad.

2008-07-23T09:15:00.003+08:00

i admit, i do feel bad.
it's all my fault.
i should not have move to the back.
that's my mistake.
i'm sorry.

having a hard time.
coping with it, and people giving the cold shoulder.
it may be partially my fault,
but you can't put the blame on me.
chances were given,
so you're partially to be blame too.

i will try very hard, to prove you wrong.
in fact, to prove all wrong.
i can do it, yes i know.
but please do support me.
i need your support.
instead of giving me the cold shoulder,
why not give me the support?
come on people, let's support one another.

in this play, i've been destroying peoples' dream.
of course, i'm feeling bad.
but i'll make sure that dream of yours will come true.
cause this play will be the last for me.
i can't take it anymore.
everything is changing.
the people, the surrounding.
and for what i think, the title should change.

i'm feeling very tired.
seriously tired.
kept changing role.
and has to memorise the different scripts.
what the hell.
i still can't memorise some dialogues.
i'm dead, super dead.
as the day is drawing near.
i'm so sad, very sad.
people don't give a damn about me.
nope, not PMS-ing.
i'm seriously feeling down, bitch.

Ya Allah, please make me strong.
to go through all these obstacles.
i'm seriously tired, give me some strength.
to some people, i sincerely apologised for what happened.

All the best!
Assalamualaikum, people.

updates. (:

2008-07-15T10:40:00.003+08:00

ok people, i'm updating my pathetic blog.
i will just update about myself and shan't elaborate more ok.
malas dok! hehe.. :p

ok here we goooooooooooooooooooooo~

me & hero dah 2 tahun together. yeap2.. on the 8th of July. Alhamdullillah.
sadly but true, me, the petite and adorable(aaww) girl, is playing the rebana for the dikir barat comp. yar, i know, that's weird but that's the truth!
to add up, the comp is just two more weeks, i repeat TWO MORE WEEKS and i still didn't get the hang of it. oh Allah, please help me.
the hatred for REB is getting deeper and deeper.
me no future. =(
i miss dancing, dancing, dancing.
i want that black cardigan-kinda-shawl at cotton on. but it cost $29.90!!!
talking about clothes, i've got that super-cool emily overall (did i get the spelling right, people?). it's $99 lah seh. thanks to hero. (:

oklah, the last two points are so random. hee..

that's all.

Assalamualaikum, people. (:

take care.

HIATUS

2008-06-30T20:12:00.002+08:00

ok people, you will see less me this few weeks.

yar, so don't miss me ok cos i don't miss you. (:

Ya Allah, please make me strong.

counting down to........................................................ 2nd.

OK OK..

2008-06-19T11:47:00.002+08:00

ok here i am, updating my blog. upon many requests, i'll update ok.

ok dinamis is, at last, OVER! BUT, i really2 miss dinamis. contradicting? yar i know but well, that's the truth. i miss those saturday's morning meeting. when we're late be it 5 mins, we are fine 50 cents for it. haha.. i remembered adee's face when she collected it. haha.. suke lah kan!!! i wonder what they did to those money eh! other than that, i miss those monday and tuesday trainings. dance and dance. ouh!! i so love dancing! hehe.. but of course lah tiring. duh~

to those people who are involved in dinamis, well done guys! you guys have done a superb job! keep it up.

dinamis over and done with, now with MCC events. BANG!!! [a shot in the head] programme again and again! HELP!

no pictures for now but will upload it a.s.a.p..
next year kot? kan amz.. hahahaha..

ok dah bye people!
will update pretty, pretty soon!!

BTW, SEX AND THE CITY IS SUPER GOOD!! though it's very R.A!!! but THE HAPPENING is a NO, NO!! go watch movie before the school starts!
hehehehehe...

CHAOIZ PEOPLE!

after such a long time

2008-05-24T23:29:00.004+08:00

yeap2, after such a long time..

had a proper outing with hero. is that the word i'm supposed to use? a "proper" outing? hee.. but seriously, it has been quite some time we had the time for each other. we spent the whole day together2. dah lamer lah kan tak mcm gini2..

so yar, what basically happened today was that hero took the day off! woohoo~ so we met near my block around 10.15am. then we headed toooo ESPLANADE! haha.. (sampai terbabas2 and tersesat2 eh - funnylah!!!). okok, so then we reached there around 11.30 kot! then we went straight to the theatre, so eagerlah kan! uhuh, inside the theatre, we saw this couple seat so we sat lah memandangkan yang kite nie couple! hahaha.. then satu makcik nie datang and said to us, "Please fill in the front seats." I was like (-_-''). so much of free seating. at last, me and hero took the seats that is 3 rows away from the stage. sooo freaking near. hahaha.. about 10mins later, the show began!!!

uhuh, to me, GENTARASA 2008 was good! seriously, i rate it around 6/10. ok kan tu? the dance was nice BUT!!! there was too many silat steps plus the song for the dancing is too long. so yar, people tend to get bored after some time. but overall, they are superb. 1 thumb up! only 1 lah. saw kak ayu, kak nisha, and iqah performed! the show is quite short actually. about 1h 15 mins. it's not worth to pay that much actually for this performance but lucky me, i've got the complimentary tix if not, bisinglah mulut nie popetpopet. haha..

moving on, some tense happened between me and hero after that, but shan't elaborate more about it. after that we went to citylink then to marina square to makan. and saw hero's brother. haha.. teringat obek tetibe. she said she nak kenal2 eh ngan him. omg.. uhuh, then2, walked all the way back to cityhall mrt station, leaving PUTTRI at esplanade all alone. hahahaha.. we walked all the way to bugis walking. yeah, walking!!! gerek. dah lamer seh tak walk2 ngan hero. hahaha.. then bought a new top there. $10 lah seh!! then yadahyadahyadah, went to try MILO mcflurry at mc. eeeiii.. not nice! $2.70 gone. chet! uhuh, then walked past the DHL balloon! i saw wanna try that lah seh. DHL stands for DhilaHafiz Love. HAHAHAHA.. okk, lame. so yar, we walked all the way back to esplanade to fetch PUTTRI.

then we went all the way to boat quay to snap pictures for my UPE project. after that, we got to know there would be fireworks so yar, we linger around that area to watch! it was nice. hehe.. teringatlah seh 080806. hehehe.. hero knows, i know, public donno lah seh! okok. then after that, kite pon BALEK! hahahahahaahaha..

yes, a very long entry and yes, i'm so happy today. =))

to that hero, thank you very much for making my day.

it's been quite some time.

hee..

and, i think i've gained some weight again.

i sayang you, hero!

seriously, tak paham.

2008-05-23T16:44:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum people.

here i am in the clubhouse, waiting for hero to fetch me. i am super duper bored. kyn didn't go to school. hero didn't go to school to meet me for his lunch. sadly, for my lunch, i ate alone. yeah, alone. haizz.. so pathetic.

ok enough, about today.

let me share about some things that has made my brain think, think and think.

IMAGINE!!!

imagine your family members say that you've changed. changed. totally changed. the one that you're closed to in your family, said that you're actually no more the person that he/she used to know. how do you feel?
what's worst, people see you as someone who is so softspoken, well-mannered, someone that someone can rely on, but now! no more. you've changed. changed to someone who is over-outspoken, full of vulgarities, no more that little-miss-nice. but to you, you didn't change. how do you feel?

you think by being that way, that's the real you. but why the sudden eh? don't tell me that all the past years in your life, that's the fake you. how hypocrite! so the real you is the bad one, not the nice one.

haizz.. not only that, you're attached. and i mean, attached. but then actually, you have someone else. you like that someone else, someone who is one of your close friends. uhuh, close friend. i shall say this is more like a secret admirer. you're attached for years but then.... can't you for once, sit and think. think of your relationship with your boyfriend. the memories you had together. the time that you had spent together. think and try to reflect. not wasted? it's so easy for you to just have someone else. so what with the conflicts that you both are facing, go through it and try to improve on the relationship. not find someone else. but still to you, you are right. you want both, you love both! *selfish*..

now, all that i asked from you, is to have a time of your own. sit and think. go and do some soul searching.
think, whether you are right or wrong.
hope Allah opens your heart! insya Allah.

this is what one of my close friends share with me about her friend. yes, i know her. so.. yeah, this is for you.
to anyone yang terase, jangan marah ye. but maybe you can change too. hee..

that's all..
take care korang..

p.s: i can't wait for gentarasa tomorrow!!! woohoo~~~

mhbs is love.

hee..

don't be like me okay.

2008-05-20T00:33:00.002+08:00

Reminder to my fellow Year 2 friends,

Please refrain from taking the IS module "LIVING IN THE INFORMATION ERA". - i guess that's what the module is. wonder why? cause you gonna regret it, LIKE ME! omg. it sucks big time. trust me. the lecturer is damn old who is inside his own fantasy. and what's worst, the assignment has nothing got to do whatever he teaches. wth! and also, the assignment is so damn difficult! example will be, -INFORMING SEARCH ENGINES AND RSS- omg, what the f**k is that.

So yar, for your own safety and for your own good, do not take this module ok. don't be like me okay! i'm being kind enough to remind you nie.. ok dah!

and yes, this entry is made with full of anger. menyampah tao! it's like totally~
so yar,

TAKE IT AT YOUR OWN RISK!

2008-05-18T12:40:00.003+08:00

hey people!

yeap2, i've moved to a new url,

HTTP://HEYTHERE-DYLA.BLOGSPOT.COM

so, do update ok.

and yes, a new skin too!a brand new start for my blog which is so dusty!

been cleaning it up!

enjoy!!!

2008-04-21T11:43:00.004+08:00

okk, a short update.

PEOPLE, PEOPLE from Ngee Ann Polytechnic!!!

the malay students i mean.

please take note and mark ur calender ok on

3rd & 4th May 2008, Saturday and Sunday.

basically because, we'll be having our yearly event,

MALAY CULTURAL CLUB FRESHMEN ORIENTATION CAMP 08/09.

Payment is $6 only.

Please do try to make it ok.

CCA Points will be awarded.

If you're interested, do contact ur respective heads and pay to them by end of this week.

TERIMA KASIH.

2008-04-15T10:07:00.002+08:00

ehem, ehem..

14th April 2008.

VROOM.. VROOM.. VROOM..

hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe..

ok, i know.

that's so random! =)

i'm happy.

are you?

2008-03-22T15:10:00.007+08:00

ok, i know it's been ages since i last update this blog of mine. sorry ah people. you know me, lazybumbum! hee..

some UPDATES:

28th Feb - 2nd Mar
Overseas Expedition at Endau Rompin West Johor.
organised by the Ngee Ann Muslim Student Society.
super duper fun because of orang-orang giler seperti;

it's indeed a memorable one.
really, really, really enjoy myself.
thanks to these girls for rocking my socks!!!

and also, to this darling of mine for berjaye to pursuade me to go!! haha... =D

4th Mar
Malay Cultural Club Annual General Meeting.
wahaha.. okk.
erm.. as usual fun. me, in charged of programming.
almost breakdown, luckily tini was there with me.
and me? Programma Officer.
breakdown lagi, but this time NO TINI, but got hairil. ppfft~

NEW MAIN COMM MEMBERS:
President: Hakim
V.President: Hafeez
Secretary: Nadiyah
Treasurer: Adee
Logistic Manager: Hafiz
Program Manager: Hairil
Program Officer: Dhilah
Head of XPDtari: Hajar
Head of Adiratna: Safiah
Head of Paduka: Fahmi
Head of Sri Nadi: Fyza
Head of Cendekiawan: Dayah

hee.. looking forward to work with you guys.
insya Allah, things will go well and we'll continue to bloom MCC's name.
amin.

other than that, hero has started his attachment at KEPPEL on the 3rd Mar.

sad, not much time spend together but happy, cause he is happy. haha..

for me, once again, giving tuition to that naughty cuzzy!! urgh~
only God knows how i feel.

hee.. semangat bertugas lah kan! =)

that's all people.

next update, bulan depan ok.

hahaha..

selamat menanti!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

2008-02-22T12:29:00.005+08:00

yahoo~ exams are over now.
of course, i'm happy. =)
hee..

BUT...

people are starting their attachment real soon.
that includes hero and darla.
bestie is going to start her fyp too.
me?
none of the above.

this holiday is gonna be super duper boring for me.

urgh~

i really need to find a job.

but nak kerje aper seh?!!

we planned so many things for this hols but too bad, tak kesampaian.

well~ nemind..

i wanna go to the beach to relax myself but then, HOW??

no friend.

the whole week of next week is going to be busy with preparation for OE.

yes, OE!

i'm scared, i don't know why.. *weirdo*

but yeah, that's how i feel.

first time going overseas with schoolmates and what's worst, i don't really know most of them.

so yar~ new experience.

[it's been quite some time since i've had this adventure2 kinda thing.

haha.. wonder how i will adapt to it after like being so pampered!!! mati ah~]

and due to that, can hardly find time to spend with bestie and darla.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

menyampah ah!!

tak suke ah mcm nie.

2008-02-13T20:22:00.003+08:00

to everyone,

ALL THE BEST FOR UR EXAMS, BAYBEHS!

TAKE CARE.

define care please.

2008-02-11T14:49:00.000+08:00

ok people, define CARE please.

care [dictionary.com]
1. feel concern or interest;
2. to feel concern about

so basically concern right?

according to bestie girl, care is

"care is wen u do anitin for sumone so as not to make her sad or disapointed or angry..and to give in"

ok, i know this is so random!

i love MY hero.

-fiz'o-my-hero-

i simply hate presentation!

urgh~

2008-02-09T17:14:00.000+08:00

"di bawah langit biru aku bersumpah,

diriku tanpamu apa artinya cinta.."

Yesterday was 19th monthsary with hero.

Syukur Alhamdullilah..

Hope our relationship lasts,

what's more with daddy's green light.

to that hero,

i love you sayang.

you're the reason for the smile on my face..

2008-02-01T15:33:00.000+08:00

DOOMED!!!

CURSED!!!

DAMNED!!!

CONDEMNED!!!

DEAD!!!

mati ah.

lose that ~~love~~,

lose that ~~ring~~,

losing u...

2008-01-14T00:03:00.000+08:00

kepada kawanku, Allahyarham Zaid.

semoga rohmu dicucuri rahmat.

aku akan selalu mengingatimu.

haizz.. yes, the one that was in the Berita Harian (12. January. 2008). i didn't expect to know your death through the papers. i'm so sorry and i just knew that people have been trying to contact me through my old no. to inform me about your death. haizz~ it's just so sudden.

because of this, i disapproved of hero working as a rider.

he's not happy, i know.

&, he's not talking to me..

to hero,

i just hope that u realised that now it's not the time.

continue to ignore me ok.

[~~someone i love~~ or something i love??]

just go for something ok.

ok that's all.

feeling down right now.

i'm just scared to lose you, hero.

that's all.

2008-01-03T09:56:00.000+08:00

ok. due to hot demand of asking to me update, here it goes ok bebs.

i'll start with PIALA KHATULISTIWA.

ok basically about dance. well, the contemp dance was super duper fun! i really, really, really enjoy myself. wow! i feel soooooooo good after the dance. so semangat all and i feel like wanna dance again lah seh. haha.. shiok sendiri atas stage. ok giler! ok then, i really look forward to see the video how we [to be more specific, ME] look when we dance. betape hampe nye saye, when i found out that the stage was dark as in due to poor lighting. haizzz~ thanks eh people. seriously, you might not want me to comment more about the lighting. easy say, it's like the stage is empty with just song played. imagine lah eh. =p

contemp peeps.

ok then, i have to wait for like 6 hours gitu for my next performance. haha.. sempat eh hambe tido. by the time nak perform zapin hiphop, dah setengah maut. dah takde mood. i really don't know why but the mood just fades away so eventually, i don't feel good after the dance. haizz.. BUT THEN, maybe i'll performing zapin hiphop again, this coming sat @ plaza singapura. haha.. 1st time lah seh! ok.. check it out bebs!

zapin hiphop peeps.

ouh yar, before i continue, let me wish whoever reads my blog,

A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR.

yea~ new year. must have resolution right? ok, here are some of my resolutions:

(1) like any other girls, i wanna be thin. so must eat less junk foods, in fact no junk foods. i want my weight to below 40kg!!!

(2) i sooooooooooooooooooooo have to buck up on my studies. that's all i can say. [another year and i'm done! so please hang on there, dhilah]

(3) to grow up emotionally and mentally despite that i know that i can't grow physically anymore. =)

(4) to take my car license and only GOD knows why i wanna take it. car 1st than vroomvroom!

(5) create less problems to self. to be more exact, stop being stupid. =p

& the list goes on..... and on.... and on......

ok lah bebs, i really don't know what more to say. take care..

to bestie: let's meet up soon.
to darla: i miss u..
to hero: i love you very much.
to the rest: pegi blah.. haha.. joking2. =) *peace*

Peace be upon you.

biar busuk badan, jangan busuk hati.

kan hero? hee.. =)

with love.

2007-12-17T16:51:00.000+08:00

ok people. i'm back. i know it's been quite some time from my last update. hee.. =)

recently, i'm busy with khatu preparation. omg! the thought of it, it's like i'm sooo scared. seriously.. i'm still lagging for zapin hiphop. doomed! i'm sooo gonna love comtemporary. haha.. with the mask. well~ the mask. *speechless* i changed it from black and red to gold and bronze. haha.. nevermind lah, i only perform sekejap je for that item. i really wanna thank hero for his endless support and his help in the making of this mask. haha.. i'll place the photo of the mask soon ok. now, still in the process~

other than that, i'm super duper happy that...

HADY MIRZA WON THE ASIAN IDOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yessa~ luckily that jaq didn't win lah seh. phew~ haha.. if not, that's it seh. doomed too! hehe.. congrats hady! we're proud of you. you're always a winner. =)

other than that, i miss bestie and darla. it's been quite some time. i miss you girls. i'm sorry that i'm busy with my upcoming performance. but i promise u that i'll ask you girls for a date pretty soon ok. insya Allah. do come down for the khatu ok and support us.
to bestie, i'm so touched with your msg that you sent yesterday night. it was so sweet. rest assured that i'll take care of myself and i won't miss my meals. promise me that you will do the same thing ok. i lurve you bebs.

the two weeks break is now here. 1st week busy with khatu preparation. 2nd week rest time! haha.. maybe should just get back to school? I SO NEED TO BUCK UP ok.

so yeah that's all.
don't know what more to say.
hee..

to that hero, i love you dude.

*you take my breath away*

melancholy mood (3)

2007-12-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

"all i need now is just a shoulder to cry on."

mood: very sad and disappointed with own self.

@ home.

due to my carelessness and stupidity, all these are happening.

"everything happens for a reason" - quoted by BESTIE. yea~ i know, but i'm the reason for all these to happen. i'm such an _________. urgh~

to hero, all these happen not because of you. actually, there's nothing much into you. it's all mine. but all i need is just a shoulder to cry on and some words of comfort. i'm really not in a stable mood now. so many things happened, and i really, really need to be my side and supporting me. i just wanna be strong. like you.. so please stand by me and make me strong.

oh ALLAH, please make me strong to go through the mess that i've made. i really need ur guidance. please...

i need you, hero.

i really do....

2007-11-23T18:36:00.000+08:00

"jika kau tiada

pada siapakanku dendang syair cinta dan

dakapan mana harus ku bersandar

meraih kasih yang ku perlu"

haha.. i was like so obsessed with this song. hehe.. super duper nicenicenice!!!

mood: boring, quite happy. =)

@ clubhouse. (where else??)

friendship problem? that's the hot topic that i heard today. hmmm.. it's common lah actually. honestly, i do have friendship problems, and i can never run away from all that. since i was in primary school to secondary school to now in my poly life. and it usually associates with classmates. i've never click with them. haha.. why?? i'm not sure myself. hmmmm..

but come to think back of it, i don't want all these to bother my life. i mean so what? seriously, there are so many other people there who will love to be your friends. i'm soooo grateful to have wonderful friends around me, especially bestie and scandarla! above all that, to that hero, he's my very bestfriend! lovelove him~

actually there's even more to all that. but i shan't say more. hee.. so yeah, friendship problem is just a must in life. i know that there are some people who don't like me and who talks about me behind their back. i'll just let them be eventhough i much hated it!!! hee.. i'll just appreciate people who appreciate me in their life. =)

"a friend in need is a friend indeed"

it's true ok.

to all my friends, i want you all to know that i appreciate having you all!! thanks for being such a super duper friend!!!

to that baby sister, be strong ok!

maybe you do deserve someone better.

just hang on there and be strong. =)

ily.

holding on tight, never let go.

i soooo love hero.

thanks for being someone who's there always there for me.

my bestfriend aka hero!

u're simply the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-11-21T14:45:00.001+08:00

ouch!!! i've got a very bad backache.

suffering seh. cikgu changed the dance sequence and add some new steps. very tiring seh. then before training we had some warm up which we had to jump for the 6 8s. boleh tinggi aku!!! kepenatan menggilernye after that. i don't know what's up with yesterday's training. the tiredness can be felt. one kind seh the tired. but still, i love contemp dance! =) i'm still lost in zapin hiphop. been trying to practice the dance in my mind, and kept watching the azpirasi video at youtube. this is the only way i can memorise the steps. i'm getting there now. ard 60%?? is that ok? i'm still trying ok, very hard. please bear with me people.

other than that, i'm officially not going for the family's malacca holiday. =( sooooooooooo sad.

i've got so many things to be done but i didn't manage things correctly. i hate school!! with the silly course i'm in now. aarrggh~

that's so random seh! ok back. i just realised that khatu is just a month away!!! omg! i sooo need to buck up man for the dance. practice, practice, practice!!! being so busy with dance, and it's been quite some time i didn't go for dk training. rindu seh. i miss dk trainings!

I MISS ADIRATNA!!!!!

&, maybe obekku yg OH-BERG is coming for dance training. she ade minat nak joget kot? yessa!!! random agan! =)

ok don't know what more to say. that's all i think.

"mari menari.. jom!"

hero takes my breath away.

i'm sorry for all those fights, still i love you so.

holding on tight, never let go.

2007-11-14T14:05:00.000+08:00

it's been quite some time since i last update. upon many demands, i'll update it now since i've got nothing to do now at clubhouse. my next class is at 3pm. it's the silly environment health and law. boringlah seh. 2hours of lecture then 1 hour of tutorial. tutorial is at 5pm. haizz.. i swear i really hate this semester time table. urgh. suffering in silence!!! due to that, i've really have no more interest in school seh. haizz. only God knows how i feel. [please God, make me strong!!!] i've really got no mood for school. hmmm.. PROBLEM lah seh!!!

see.. now i don't know what more to say. i guess last semester modules are far more interesting. [now, i'm asking elias to send the song "jika kau tiada". dah lamer tak dgr lagu nie.. wahaha.. ] ok, for last semester, i took marketing, econs, property management. gerek2 kan. but then this sem!! urgh, urban planning, property valuation, real estate research and many more. boring menggilernye. den the timetable mcm toot gak. not only that, ABT is a 2 times lah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BINGIT!!

i'm seriously dead bored now.

mum&dad planned to go Malacca wid aunt's family this 8,9,10th of dec. which is sat, sun and mon. dgr2 monday tak skola eh. haizz.. donno how lah eh. feel like going pon ade, don wanna go also ade. haizz.. how? how?
that's all lah i guess. seriously donno what more to say.

i wonder who's the next head for tarian.
understudies?? ~~do avoid me.~~

p.s: i sooo love hero. & the show heroes too. haha..

2007-11-06T13:50:00.000+08:00

in the clubhouse now. boring to the max. not schooling today but went to school to meet hero. then what's more got tarian training later at yewtee. so yar.. i can't wait to get groovy and dance with the crazy xpdtari peeps! hee..

MCC jalan raya was like super duper fun!!! it's like almost 60 people lah seh. woohoo~ me&you took the bus. we wore black! [black is beauty, you know!] i love black. hero kept looking at people with motorbikes! oh poor hero! i wish that you will get your motobike pretty soon ok. insya Allah. who knows next year, our turn!!! haha.. ok.
kak long and boyfie, yanty, amir, anuarrandi and me&you are the ones in black! woohoo.. dah mcm satu keluarga lah seh. mum and dad are kak long and boyfie, then yanty kakak sulong ehem ehem ehem with anuarrandi.. [oops.. sorry yanty. it's just story aje ok. konon2 aje. kalau terjadi, why not kan? =)].. then me the 2nd child ehemehemehem with hero. well~~ haha.. last but not least, amir. the youngest one! see.. the family tree of the black attire people. weehee.. kite tengok mcm ner lah eh next year..
haha.. obek as usual start up my day. she's soo funny lah kan. nak masok meminang lah eh?? pheeweet~ dengan mat hindustan pat bedok plak tu. bek tanak kalah seh. haha.. cute lah bek!! me and ama was laughing like orang gile. bile ingat je pasal tu, leh ketawe lah seh. obek obek OBERG!!! hee.. =))
a friend of mine sadly don't know how to differentiate the colour dark blue and brown! haha.. kekek lah seh. KYN KYN!! nak aku ajar tak? i smell something fishy here.

went swensen-ing with bestie yesterday at causeway point. we planned to just eat ice cream at McDonald. then like all of the sudden we tercampak ke swensen! woohoo.. and someone owes me something!! haha.. loving bestie. she always turn me on. wahaha..

counting down to me&you 16th! but sadly, it falls on Deepavali eh. can celebrate deepavali as well lah kan. but it's a public holiday so i can't go out wid hero. nvm, insya Allah, i'll make it up.
that's all for today, i guess.

kepada sesiape yang tersinggung membace blog ini, saye mintak maaf ye. haha..

HAPPY DEEPAVALI PEOPLE!!!

to that hero, happy advanced 16th love.

i love you sooo much.

holding on tight, never let go.

i believe!

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melancholy mood

2007-11-01T01:28:00.000+08:00

well, the melancholy mood is here once again. been feeling very very very sad and down for the past few days. honestly, i'm not sure why. many things had happened lately. things aren't that good between me&you. school sucks as always. dance training is getting tougher each day. i can't concentrate that much lately. my mind isn't that stable lately. i'm scared to laugh as eventually, i will end up crying. haizz.. but as they always say laughter is the best medicine. zapin hiphop was kinda fun actually but then very very very tiring of course. i sooo need to build up my stamina. i'm so weak.. not only that, i'm like soooo freaking fat!!! i need to get rid of theses fats on my body. i miss dk trainings. i'm so sorry guys as i'm unabled to help u this saturday. thousand apologies!

me&you are not really that good lately. i really hope things will be okay soon. i'm missing you eventhough if you don't miss me. so near, yet so far. it sucks big time ok. i hate it. other then that, at last abled to meet bestie. spend time together with her. i miss her soooo. and not forgetting scandarla. i love you gerls. obek plak, haha.. i sooo love the kiss on the forehead. at least, ade orang nak kiss lah kan. i love obek! (manje lah kan!)

someone says that i must be more like a girl in order to be treated like a girl. i guess that's the reason why he/she didn't respect me like any other girls. i'm like soooo sad and shocked to hear that. macam aper seh.. i mean girls are girls. they deserve the respect ok despite how they are. haizz.. i just wish that i could be more feminine. but that's how i am people.
i realised that some people just can't accept me for who i am. if i can accept you for who you are, why can't you?? i really don't know why people detest me soo much. *hurt*

that's all peeps.

holding on tight, never let go.
i believe..

i love you, hero.

2007-10-23T15:53:00.000+08:00

testing2.. 1 2 3...

aiseh bedah! boleh lah seh! haha.. thanks hero!

total boredness

2007-10-23T15:23:00.000+08:00

in school right now, waiting for hero to end his day at school. & now, i'm rotting myself with agnes monica's song! omg.. i'm like sooo love her to bits and pieces! she really rock lah sey. now, i'm listening to "TAK ADA LOGIKA". gerek! hehe.. i was trying to figure out how to upload video from youtube to my post. but urgh~ i gave up. ntah mcm ner pon i also don't know. asking hero later.

sorry for going missing lately without updating my blog. it's like malas gitu nak update or nak update tapi mcm malas. haha.. ok2, lame. my hari raya was okay lah. that's all i can say. this year, my baju raya was black and green!! woohoo.. green day lah sey! haha..

other than that, i'm so called busy with my tarian training. tak laen tak bukan. khatu is just like a month plusplus & we've yet to finish our set. *worried*. looking forward for training right now, cause i really feel like dancing!! lagi-lagi, bile dengar lagu agnes nie lah kan, lagik tak leh tahan seh. i wanna dance!! hee.. how i wish lah kan, can dance with agnes! haha.. she's such a great dancer. she can get groovy to any beat of the song. coolness!! i wanna be a great dancer like her. no, lemah lembut dance for me please.. haha.. sorry..

i'm missing the adiratna peeps. heard that their jalan raya is this sunday. well, i'm going BUT!!!! i heard xpdtari jalan raya maybe is on sunday too! how?? i can't simply divide myself into 2 right? haizz.. "ADIRATNA, I MISS YOU GERLS. &, ABG IM TOO!" haha..

well, we'll see how it is ok.

(to that kepale, i really2 hope that you'll change and able to click with us. i wonder what's wrong now..")

"SELAMAT HARI RAYA, HERDIYANI!"

she's soooo cute! =)

that's all. bye peeps. =)

i simply love my hero!

holding on tight, never let go.